Darkzero-sdz

premium sub on my birthday, how cool is that?
i dont know, who gave it to me, but thank YOU!

if there's anyone interested, i'll stream my current progress with my drawing on livestream.
Just comment then.

when i was in Binz for a week, i met Andreas Schiller de.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andreas_… and talked with him for some hours. It was great. In the meantime he just painted, didnt stop. It was kinda scary for me, cause drawing is something that i do for myself. Anyone watching me drawing something feels like someone watching me on the toilet...not THAT comfortable.
Alright, better comparison, drawing is like daydreaming for me. It throws me out of the thinking-reality, fully inside shapes, colors, lightness and so on...works in some ways like dreaming for me.
When someone talks to me like this, it throws me out of this mind again and i''m "awake", i'm there again. But its hard to connect to the drawing again, takes time...and like remembering a dream it works painfully slow. I'm suprised about some connecting dots that i dreamed inside the drawing...it kinda messes up the drawing itself i think.

But now, i really believe that it takes practice, to switch between drawing and talking, until both sides merge to a calm experience.

TL;DR now i'm drawing while working in a shop and its fucking great. Even with 10 people standing right before me, saying "have you seen the drawing!?" while leaving the shop. Feelsgoodman.jpg

but now i'll make a new texture. heh.

with a mouse, some textures and some stock photos. better than suffering without.

On my birthday i thought something like "hey, only 1 day left and my drawing is finished". Was on February the 11th.

I work ~8 hours a day on my current drawing, for 32 days now. getting skinnier a lot, not eating much, drinking a lot, listening to music a lot.
Well, i think THIS is luxury! Having enough time for something. I'm kinda creepy right now for anyone who wants some of my time right now
But i dont want to rush things here...its pure joy with this. Its digital, my second try with paint tool sai. I learned a lot of stuff, many of this stuff too late.
So i need more drawings, where i can try these out. I want this thing printed, when its done. When someone asks me "how was your february?" i can show this drawing.

Its abstract stuff. No human drawing, no landscape or something. So, not important for many here, but i LOVE these abstract things.
Lets see, if it gets the same attention like a random "i'll play a bit with photos" on my texture-account. I bet it won't. Its no useful tool. But it should be my joy...and its not over yet.